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Packing Everything but the Kitchen Sink
I have decided that moving is a horrible thing and should never be put off until the last minute. This whole week has been consumed by packing and buying things to pack and what not.
However, I did make some improvements.. Zoe and I are talking again, which I am very happy about. Sometimes I feel as though I overreact and put all the blame on myself, thinking that I'm the reason why so and so doesn't want to hang out or whatever. She's gone now, up to Santa Barbara. Nothing's really hit me yet, I guess. I secretly think it's the prozac. It makes me numb...but in a happy way? I'm not sure. I'm happy yet indifferent to what's going on around me? I'm not exactly sure what I'm saying.
Tomorrow could most possibly be the worst day of my life though. I have to drive Simon to Pat's house, where he will live while I'm attending USF. I know many are thinking "it's just an animal," or whatever, and I might sound like that crazy cat woman, but he's one of my best friends. Every day I come home and there he is! When I walk into my dorm, all I will see is stuff- probably still in boxes. I get nervous knowing that he's not going to be there, that he'll miss me, or he won't get along with the other cats at Pat's house but I can only hope for the best.
On the bright side, I believe I'm at 115lbs..which is a giantleap for mankind Stephanie.
Oh the Copeland fanlisting is finally up, if you care to join!
- Stephanie
August 9th, 2007 @ 10:42pm
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I'm using different names for friends, just because I think it's a good idea to protect everyone.
It's been a tough week in retrospect. Even though it's not even really over..there's still tomorrow. I was feeling nauseated and not sleeping almost every single day of this week. I lost weight though, that's always encouraging. Today was eventful because I ate, not picked at, my first meal without feeling sick afterwards. I've also noticed improvements in my mood, or maybe it's just because I know that tomorrow is my last day of working at W&W Engineering, at least until next summer. Maybe it's because that even though I know that most of my friends have left already, in just one week I'll start building friendships that will truly last a lifetime.
I say this because recently I've felt pretty shut out by one of my friends, and I laughed because she ironically said "We should hang out, I haven't seen you in awhile," when really, I've been trying to hang out with her several times this week. However, my good friend, who I know as Changis, really opened my eyes. Funny, I'm really dumb. She said, frankly, I don't think that's what friendship is all about. She's completely correct. I've had more fun with her in just one evening than ever..I can't even recall how many inside jokes we've made over the past year...they amount to 20 new ones each day it seems. With Elle it was the same way.. and I hardly new much about her when I went to stay with her. I can already see myself spending most of my life keeping in touch with these girls.
My mother and I actually did some bonding tonight by watching Catch and Release. What a wonderful movie. It's one of those "there is life after love" or "love after love" movies, and I really tried to not reference Cher, but it's really her fault for singing those lyrics and the song for being so damn popular. I've decided that I need to run to target and pick up a few dvds before I venture off to college. Catch & Release and Grandma's Boy are currently the two that I'm thinking about.
Also, I'm tired of regrets. There will be no more of those. I will live my life the way I want to live it, which is exactly how it should be lived.
- Stephanie
August 4th, 2007 @ 11:16pm
God damn you, members page!
This is one of those moments where you're both happy about one thing yet extremely frustrated about another.
However, before I continue with that, there is some news concerning my face and my best friend Chloe.
1) I got a monroe piercing 2 days ago. Proof:
2) Chloe is leaving for England monday and will not be home until after I have left. This is the same case with Natasha too, except she is in Mexico or somewhere.
I'm trying to make this short because I'm tired of typing at the moment, and I really just which that I could be saying this instead. So, my room mate and I talked on the phone today, and it was wonderful. She's not a murderer or a weirdo, she's actually just like me..strange!
This wonderful news about my room mate is quickly countered by the fact that all that remains left to do on the Nick Swardson fanlisting is the members page....which REFUSES to work for me. *UNNECESSARY CURSING*.... Michelle....help meee....please? ;o;
- Stephanie
August 2nd, 2007 @ 09:38am
Therapy goes with Shopping
Yesterday, my mom set a trap for me by not saying that I had a therapist appointment scheduled that day. I protested, of course- I'm not exactly one to spill the actual gruesome details of my life to someone I don't know. Ironically, this is an online journal, but what you're reading now is a little sugar-coated to protect the innocent. Basically, I really enjoyed the visit.. Which was very peculiar to me. They also took me off Zoloft because it was making me sleepy, and gave me Prozac. When they told me I was being prescribed Prozac, the entire book of Prozac Nation flashed through my mind. It's a really great book, pick it up if you want to read.
What's better is that after all that, my mom and I went to the mall and bought clothes. Now I can wear several jeans in a week rather than rotating through two or so. Unfortunately, warmer clothes aren't exactly in stock just yet, so I mostly just grabbed a bunch of shirts to layer.
I'm not feeling as indescribable today, which I am enjoying to the fullest (as much as possible..considering I have 7 hours of work left.) Woo! Hopefully in this attitude I'll be able to get home, troubleshoot my mac, making the Okage: Shadow King layout, and start going through clothes that either are going with me to San Francisco, or not. Actually that sounds like a lot, because I was about to throw in the Nick Swardson fanlisting that I need to complete...at least the layout's done.
Well, I guess anything's possible right now. I'm sure I'll get everything I need to get done- eventually.
- Stephanie
